Chewing and spitting(CS) food, is exactly that. But is it as bad as that sounds? You chew your food, you have a plastic bag or Ziploc, and without swallowing, you spit it all out. It’s as simple as that. Is it bad? I thought about this as I googled and started reading up on chew and spit. I couldn’t find much on it, but the stuff I did read, it made a lot of good points. There was the usual pros and cons that come along with all ED and ana mia topics. When I say pros, of course there are those who could never live without their ED, or feel they never could, it’s what drives us(me included). They will never be fat again and eating is not worth it, or purging is everything to keep them the way they want to look or try to achieve what they want in their minds(usually it’s never good enough, some are so warped even emaciated is never enough). All that is understandable. If you have an ED, you get it. As outsiders see pros of cs or ana or mia, as a horrible monster, it’s our emotional crutch. How could we expect them to understand? So, there are pros to our eating disorder, to us. I’ve not lived without my ED for a very longtime. I’ve taken breaks from it, but it’s always there, my safety spot when I need it.

What about the cons?

As I was reading on, I clearly understand the cons and the concerns over chew and spit. I thought about my battle with anorexia and bulimia, and now cs(which I would have thought falls under bulimia, but if falls under EDONS -Eating Disorder Otherwise Not Specified), and the reality, is cs has saved me from those two. I’ve taken steps, from one disorder to the next. Doing cs, has changed everything for me. Without cs, I’d still be in my last disorder of bulimia, and the not so good ways of purging(throwing it up and abusing laxatives). Being anorexic and bulimic are horrible, that’s not something we don’t know. For someone who doesn’t have those struggles, I wonder if they realize how bad those are. CS compared to that, I‘d rather cs. For anyone who says it’s disgusting and gross, without cs coming into my life at the time it did, I could be dead right now. The purging was lasting for hours. I was more and more out of control. Reading on about the cons, there’s not many I see as true in my experience with cs so far. The one thing I do see as a con though, is it’s still an ED. It’s another control mechanism, but I find it the safer of the ED’s if done right.

Thoughts on chew and spit.

I realize myself and a small community of us think very differently about it than most. If you’ve recovered, I understand you’d tell people the cons and to quit. When/if the day comes, if it’s not needed anymore, I will still tell people how it benefited me in the time I needed it, and it saved my life. But, my end goal, is to not need it one day. Whatever happens, that’ll be the journey I share. But, I won’t tell people it’s bad, unless I find real cons to share, and so far I haven’t. The end goal is to be free from any ED, but I don’t wish anorexia and bulimia on anyone. Those are the most evil two. I hope they will stay permanently behind me. I believe with cs, they will. There’s a right and wrong way of cs and food consumption, but I won’t get into that here, I’ll save that for another post. I just know, I’ve never felt better, since starting cs.

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